White Elephants

edit: Robert's insane, why didn't I even fucking think about that back when I praised him so, back here?  Titles, and 'other side' bullshit.  Why couldn't I see it? No, I had to go in hook line and sinker, believe it all and believe that being given a title meant anything at all.  Do yourselves a favor if this is your first time reading this,  take your index finger, cram it down your throat and spend twenty minutes throwing up, then skip this entry.

I'm sure most of you have followed Robert(Sage) over on White Elephants.  He's gone now, off to do his duty against a callous ethereal foe.  I chalk it up as a win for us overall, the first blog that was ended without a death apparent.  He's still out there, laughing at constructs.  I...Sorry if my typing is a bit off today, I'm perturbed by his departure.

Robert had talked about finding new Sages since the first three had...well disappeared in one form or another.

then I get a comment on my last blog saying

You

3/3

I check the name 'greenlight'....and it's Sage.

I...

god, look, I know I've said that I've always wanted a chance to be someone, to leave something behind...to be remembered, but if I read this right; that he's picking me as a rep of some sort.   I dunno if I'm that sort of guy...

Still, I said I was in this thing, and I guess I still am.  But I haven't seen the Slender Man.  I can only speculate on him until he shows himself.

I guess I really do need to see if that bum is still out there by the overpass, maybe I can learn something useful, or buy him a fire extinguisher...

Amelia got a notice as well,  but who is 1/3?  Who is it?  Maybe we need to talk before anyone starts claiming stuff about 'new sages'.  I wouldn't dare to be so arrogant and self-absorbed to think I know anything more than Robert, Jay or Shaun.

Time to give this some extra thought.


edit:  It's Maduin.  Thanks, Omega.

edit 2:  Maduin and I have been in contact, if only a hair.  He advises me to find the 'Rock' .   Having searched WE, I come across this

Maduin said:
Sad deal, this "Hero" business. And one would have to have a mind and soul as strong as a rock.
Do you intend to nurture such an individual?
Raise one?
Create one? 

then

Robert Sage said... Zeke(Mystic) had his shot, a Warrior who's already had a turn at the Warrior and isn't -corrupted- becomes a Mystic. That's not to say Zeke can't try again.

Maduin...you(Seer) are very very clever and figured out the Grand Theory. Almost. You see, Heroes can't be created or forged. That never ends well. I(Sage) have other plans.


Alright, I have a task before me now, A hero cannot be created or forged, and must have strength of absolute conviction.  So, a hero simply...must be.  How he arises is either pointless or inconsequential.

I think the only way I'm going to really get any answers on what to do, or how to do so is to encounter him myself.

Confused

edit: and here's where I started a journey into madness, pay attention people.  It gets worse before it gets better,  look at those fucking titles I'm already using, fucking embarassing.

Okay, so I've been thinking about /construct/ and my role in all this, and I'm starting to wonder what I am supposed to do with it all.  I think I've given out some ideas so far as to what it takes to confront evil, but I find myself afraid as well at times.  Last night, I thought I felt a hand across my face, which caused me to jolt awake.  I live alone, both my hands are generally under my head...What the hell am I hallucinating?  I keep looking to the side of the road, thinking I'll see him, and then I'll know that it's begun.  I know I've got a very active imagination, I mean I've role played for nearly 20 years now, but this...it's like I'm haunting myself.

Pfft, I knew the risk when I decided to delve into the myth, to extend myself towards those in needs.  I just want to make a difference for one of them, whether it's B in "What Now?" or Robert(Sane) in White Elephants, whom I have grown worried over.

I know I have an answer for someone somewhere, but when and to whom?  Must I seek out other blogs as well to help spread the words, or am I just self indulgent, arrogant enough to believe that the human collective has strength beyond creatures, nightmares?

I see I have a follower now, which is nice to know.  I can only hope that he has faith in me, rather than wanting to watch me burn...

where am I?  I'm so lost today, and tomorrow, it'll feel totally different.  Who needs a mental labrynith by the /construct/, when I am lost inside myself?

My Weekend

I had a fun weekend this week.  Most of the time was with my family, it was good to sit back and not jump at shadows.  One thing I haven't mentioned much lately is that I've always been a bit of a paranoid person, and this started way way before /construct/ appeared on the net.  Probably started because my mother watched a lot of murder mysteries which freaked me out, I still recall some of those supernatural thrillers, and some lame ass psycho tie-in on Murder, She Wrote.  *What an awful show*  Taking a shower still gives me the creeps.

So firstly, no, no sign of him, although I admit I've scanned the treeline on the side of the road occasionally, and I've been drawn to look at public pictures just to see.  Nothing, which is a relief so far.  My luck holds out another week, though it hasn't gotten me any winning McD Monopoly pieces.  Oh well, can't have it all, I'll choose avoidance of persecution by eldtrich enemies over winning free fries anyday.

Anyhoo, update on my personal thoughts.

B on his blog, "What Next?" has come under fire quickly...almost rapidly by /construct/!  He doesn't write very long, and writing doesn't seem to be his strong suit, I suspect he's still not at terms of his life now on the run, and hasn't the experience to handle it.  B, if you read this, remember that the blog serves two purposes, as a stress release and a warning, try to let that guide you.

Robert Sage(Sane) on White Elephants seems to have settled back down, as one of the last Sages left.  I haven't read too much of the other Sages work, though I heard about  Anomalous Data's Sage Jay(Unfortunate)
Part of me wonders if maybe my diatribe on Robert(Sane)'s account helped bring him back down...If so that'd mean that my entire blog reason has had an impact, but I can't be so...impertenant to think that a single comment of assistance can save a man's sanity.

I don't recall any other startling news since my last post, but I do find Omega's work interesting at the Encyclopeida Slenderia.  I have yet to read it but I admit I find Omega a kindred spirit if for no other reason as that we both seem to be seekers of knowledge, and that Omega and Zero are sort of similar concepts.


My thought for the day

Who is A?  And what is A's goal?  Did A actually fight /construct/ in A Lack of Lexicon, or was that someone else?