Thursday, December 2, 2010

Dirty Work

I really don't want to talk about Nessa right now.

I've never seen such a mental breakdown.

Funny, today was going to be a big day for me, but not like this, I had other plans,  funny though they sort of had the same intent in mind, just in a different fashion.

And now I have a whole new set of problems because of it.


Someone outside is very unhappy with me.  I keep blacking out, feeling the weight of the room bearing down on me, I keep thinking the apartment's going to be set on fire at any time, it's...its pretty bad.  Tendrils of influence try to grip into my head, and I just want to sleep, and yet I can't.

So much to do.


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FUCK!  what the hell is wrong with me?  noone can take a life so easily, and I'm expected to?

She was fucking begging me for a cure, and I don't know a god damn thing about a cure, and she begs me for one

she gets so upset when I don't have one,  all i got is what robert had

Fuck man

no one should have the right to just kill someone else, i don't care
i know it's about compassion but


god damnit
why am I in this spot now? huh?  I'mno god damn savior,  it's that god damn title coming back against me

you guys think 'oh hey he's that sage guy he's the guy to put a bullet in those agent guys heads'
fuck that
i may have a plan to hurt their boss, but i'm not supposed to be a murderer

going to have to either sell all ym worldly goods or start stleaing to cover these costs

im on the move, right now, got that iphone thing that she had.

can't make heads or taisl of it

at least i got some mobile access in case i haveto stay on the run

worst part
worst damn part of it
is cuz i asked for this shit
i said, hey i wanna help, i wanna figure this thing out
maybe i can sheld some light on this for you

and the plolice are not going to be happy with me

shit

b meldoy jeff, nessa jay and hundresds more
everyones dying around me again

46 comments:

  1. Dude, you need to at least find a hotel to spend the night in, preferably on the third floor or higher. I'm not saying Run, but get out of that apartment for a while.

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  2. Who said I was dead?

    Oh, well.

    I'd offer you a place to stay, Zero.

    I wouldn't mind the company.

    I'd actually enjoy having you around.

    But considering my situation, not the best time.

    I'll see about later.

    -Jeff

    PS:
    Take that slashfic writers.

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  3. Zero(I'm the new person blogging/apparently TRYING to get myself killed) I don't think you asked for this. You wanted to HELP people who were getting hurt. That's honorable. That makes you a good person.

    You want(ed) to help get rid of something that's killing innocent people and their families. Anyone else that got hurt; I'm sure it was self defense. And no one can call you out for wanting to stay alive. It's a rather human desire.

    For now, try to keep yourself safe.

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  4. @Keeper - Thanks Jeff, but I really can't trust you...not like that! just with your current status

    @Kiki - you've got easier ways to commit suicide than him. Don't bother, there's miracles all around you, you don't need a monster before you to see that. Also, thank you for your concern.

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  5. Zero, your acquaintance J is becoming a nuisance.

    Must he intrude on my relationship with your friend?

    I am sad to say that he is earning himself a death sentence.

    Please speak with him, if you can.

    I do not want to leave Jeff alone.
    He has much to endure tonight.

    -The Fallen

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  6. Zero, you didn't ask for this, but you've stepped up to the task stupendously. You're an incredibly resilient individual and you've been so strong all this time.

    You didn't have to be a Sage, it was just a cool title that you received out of the blue one day. But that doesn't matter; it wasn't you the sage helping people, it was you helping people. And that took tremendous courage. I thank you for helping us all even though you had no obligation to. You helped us because you're a good person. Not because of any of that mystical bollocks.

    It's serendipitous, really.

    And Zero, if you ever want to talk, or need somewhere to stay, just shoot me an email...

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  7. thanks Jean, I will

    I'm not fishing for compliments I swear, it's just been...well you know most of what's going on.

    and I wish these damn blackouts would quit.

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  8. B's just contacted me, he want's Blaze to kill him. ~Rose

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  9. They will, Zero.
    When the Solstice approaches.

    You will know all when that occurs.

    As for you Jean.

    A sick bitch, am I?

    An understatement.

    I am worse than a bitch.

    You will all know that very soon.

    -The Fallen

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  10. Fallen, bring it.

    Zero, I know you weren't fishing for compliments, but it's how I can help you. You talked to a doctor about your blackouts yet?

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  11. @Jean - No, I don't want to be diagnosed as insane, not yet at least. I've been in enough trouble with the cops, and in enough reports at St. Vee's, that I'm bound to arouse suspicion if I return.

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  12. Blaze has agreed to kill B. ~Rose

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  13. zero,backing out is what people who don't know howto fight,and trust me i do..


    Btw:zero,F,the lady on jeffs account has confirmed that the rake is not fiction..so can you tell me what \\it\\ looks like?

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  14. I cannot, J. You've got to talk to Lya or Jack about that. Also I said "Blacking out" not "backing out", please read my words more carefully before you respond.

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  15. Oh god...i keep hearing this loud noise that sounds like an owl..

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  16. an owl eh? Hmmm, not sure, does it screech or hoot?

    in other news, I've stopped following Borderline, Liam's so nuts he thinks he's in an action movie, seriously, plowing over 27 pedestrians he assumes are agents, and now 'Agents on motorcycles' are after him. what the hell?

    We're going to see him on the international news in the not too distant future, you know.

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  17. It was a loud screeching sound..it stopped now but it was screeching..

    Yeah i know,i even check npr for kidnappings,cuz you know who does that..

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  18. a sound tactic J, not to mention any interference you get on the radio might clue you in, if he's close.

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  19. Yeah i check my ipod every now and then,what i don't understand is how hes close when i don't see him outside..

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  20. trust that more than your eyes, J.

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  21. @J: He appeared outside my apartment building once and Chester could see him but I couldn't, so I recommend that you keep on your guard.

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  22. Thats the problem though,gene.my family knows nothing about him.i'm the only one the knows about him and i haven't seen him in a week.yesterday night i got a death threat from a hollow but i could murder one of them in no time flat!

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  23. Kid, you piss me off. Stop pretending to be something you're not. What are you, twelve?

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  24. You say you don't want to die? Stop writing.

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  25. Oh let me guess,your some crazy ass hallow who wants nothing more then to serve your master.you've got me pissed now.i'm mad at what you did to Jeff.you hurt them..givethemback

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  26. Wrong. I am merely an Observer. Save your hate.

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  27. GAYBASHING WILL NOT BE TOLERATED. EVER. EVER FUCKING EVER. DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR?

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  28. Zero-tell that to the observer that thinks he/knows everything.

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  29. GET OFF MY BLOG, J. I DO NOT CARE WHO 'STARTED IT', THERE IS NO ROOM ON MY BLOG FOR YOUR HOMOPHOBIC VIEWS HERE.

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  31. so, N, what's your story? Just a reader?

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  32. Merely tired of ignorance and pretension.

    Also bad writers.

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  33. do you include me in that last part?

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  34. No, you seem genuine enough.

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  35. You're welcome. Stay safe.

    Good luck in all your pursuits.

    Sorry to hear about the girl, but it was for the best.

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  36. The girl had a name.

    Her name was Nessa.

    She was our friend.

    -Jeff

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  37. Oh, I seem to have hit a sore spot. I'm sorry for what you must be going through right now, but as I said, it's for the best. She is at peace now.

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  38. Poor Nessa. She was a really nice girl, for the regrettably short time I knew her. It is, however, probably for the best. She can find peace. Go to heaven or the afterlife or whatever she believes in, if she believes.

    --Vivi

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  39. FollowmefindIt. FindItfindsalvation.

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  40. Zero, I'm about to face fate.

    Don't worry about me.

    Slender Bitch has got nothing on me.

    You can trust me, I'm gay for you.

    Remember that.

    And wish me luck.

    -Jeff

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  41. ...good luck, Jeff, you stupid son of a bitch

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  42. i didn't mean that, Jeff... I'm just upset with your actions, out of friendship.

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