Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Dilemma of a Damned

edit: Behold the climax of arrogance, self delusion, and obsession.  It's a bit before this that I decide I can try to fucking...feh, I can't even say it, it's ash in my mouth.  I decide spontaneously, that I can do *something* for a person potentially thousand of miles away.  Oh how important  I thought I was.

The Sage of Nothing has a dilemma... to try to find Nessa in person, and rescue her, face the monster, and his growing army...or to put her aside for the greater good.

greater good...feh

all good is great
I hear you screaming, save her, my heart screams it as well.  how can I not?  I have to save her, but I don't know the way.  I don't even know where she is.

Greenlight's hurt bad...I have a serious question for him.  And until I get that answer, I don't know what my purpose is now.

he says

Rescue Possible
Will Help
Can Restore
If Found.

does it mean him, or Nessa?    Does it matter?  Well, yes, just a little,

I

she just said 'stay away, please...'  she's still 'there' but corrupted.
of all the soul wrenching things.  he baits me, he lets her live, and taunts me, he wants me to show up, so he can kill me...or maybe all of us.  anyone, just to drive the point home


so

I said my goodbyes to Nessa, for the day, but not forever.

and I have never felt like such scum before.

pale despair before me



15 comments:

  1. I'll get her back, man.
    "From Hell's heart, I stab at thee" -Captain Ahab, Moby Dick, if memory serves. Well, I'm going to the heart of Hell if I have to, and if Slim Jim tries to stop me from getting her back, I'll make damned sure when the Solstice comes, he won't be able to so much as lift his arms.

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  2. IDIOT!
    HIS TRAP!
    GET MAD!
    NOT DESPAIR!

    Nessa mine
    Weapon Safe
    Can Find
    When Needed

    Solstice Attack
    Too Important
    Keep focused

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  3. Zero.
    I'm back.
    Give me a job.
    Cause I'm fucking ready.

    -Jeff
    A Keeper

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  5. Fuck that shit.
    He grabbed my face and I live.
    He grabbed my head and I remain myself.
    Don't you fucking dare give in!

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  7. GL...hurry

    everyone else...please....stop talking to Nessa
    it's killing me, we'll save her, but not right now,

    can barely see

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  9. PLEASE HELP
    COME AND FIND ME
    I NEED YOU

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  10. Keep running.all i can say.-J

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  11. Fff, and of course I read this right after I said something to her, now I feel doublebad.

    Don't beat yourself up over this, it's not like there's an easy answer.

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  12. Zero.
    Something's happening.
    It might be Greenlight.

    -Jeff
    A Keeper

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