Tuesday, November 16, 2010

A Fool's Errand/Tales of Projectile Vomit

I'm an idiot

I've got to be clinicically insane to do what I do, in the mame of morbid curiosity..and a vain attempt to

I'm sick to my stumach and have huge dark spots in my eyes.  I can barely see right now,  Forgive me typos.

I left work  early today waiting for the mail, I had an important delivery. from someoone i dont even lnow for a purpose far too grand.  I sat there with a gallon jug, filled with ice, water and some special things.

fefore my reckless ness damned me  I decided to tbhink about it a bit more.

i weighed my promise.  I promised him id do everything to safe his girl.  greenlight gave us the way to do it.  him or her, someone had to be marked, someone was damned.  I took the thurd option

did my vow to him overwrite my duty as a9Sage) I have a responsibility to people to help

but who had i really helped  who was safe

i mahy have provided guidance and theories but who was safe/

if it wasnt for the fact he is in love, maybe i would have declined

but its love dammit,  so i trank it.

i've vomitted six times, and cannot hold liquid in me in any form...its anightmare.  rest comes to vividdreams laughingdarkness uithink hes fighting me rightnow

calling 911

fightme


jillhim

asshole

33 comments:

  1. "Special things"? What did you drink?

    Please be okay...

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  2. You ARE an idiot, Zero. I sure as hell hope this works. A life sacrificed is sad. A life wasted is bullshit.

    I'll miss you, goddammit.

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  3. For fuck's sake, Zero! Who am I to turn to now?! You were the only goddamn person to actually reach out and help me!
    FUCK!
    I', sick and tired of this BULLSHIT!
    I want to DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

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  4. Goddamnit, if you don't post after this I'm writing you off.

    Another Sage dead? How long did he hold his title? A month?

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  5. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!!! YOU DID'NT HAVE TO DO THIS! YOU TRICKED ME! YOU ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN US! GOD DAMMIT!

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  6. GOD DAMMIT! ITS ALL MY FAULT! ALL MY FUCKING FAULT!

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  7. Oh god... I feel like crying.

    B, stay safe. It's the least we can do with his sacrifice. Like you said, he tricked you. You're not responsible. Focus on staying safe. STAY SAFE.

    I'm sorry for blowing up at you. I can't believe this is happening. God, Zero... WHY?!

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  8. So I went back to check, and you held your title for nine days...!

    ...I knew being a Sage was dangerous, but...

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  9. He never told me he was going to be affected by this. I should have known what GL meant by "become Carton". Im so sorry. IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME! Im worthleess. Zero and Melody are much more important. IT SHOLUD HAVE BEEN ME!!!!!!!

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  10. still alive
    at hospital
    melody ok?
    more later.

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  11. ZERO! For heaven's sake, don't DO that! I thought you were as good as gone.

    Please be okay, please be okay... though I don't know how the hospital will help with whatever substance you drank.

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  12. I really need to just stop going to class. I sit at my computer, everything seems like it's going to be a calm day, I leave my desk for a few hours, and then this happens.

    You gonna be okay, Zero?

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  13. ZERO! WHAT THE HELL!

    She's fine and getting better. Thank you.

    But are you ok? What happened?

    You tricked me! You did'nt have to do this.

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  14. For God's sake. You scared the crap out of me, zero.

    Clearly this means that I am never taking you out for drinks in the future. You got a prognosis from the docs on how long until you're better?

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  15. @Omega: Do what I do: Stop paying attention in class and refresh blog pages on a laptop all day.
    Sure it hasn't gotten me very good grades in Physics, but what the hell. Normal physics don't even apply here.

    @B: What did happen? I thought you'd posted something on your blog, but the post is gone now.

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  17. I was going to say something about sending a Get Well card containing a certain amount of money, but I'm not sure others would appreciate the humor at the moment.

    In all seriousness, get better soon.

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  18. @Nessa

    I'll tell you privately
    this goes for you too Maduin but I think you already know.

    bbaum18@gmail.com

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  19. A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
    Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
    Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.
    The darkness drops again; but now I know
    That twenty centuries of stony sleep
    Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
    And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
    Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?


    Hehe, Zero's no hero, but Maduin's a bad one, hehe.

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  20. Now, Nessa, what kind of an Agent would I be if I didn't antagonise the dear boy?

    He's clearly done something stupid and potentially lethal, so why not mock him while I have the chance? You have to learn to enjoy the little pleasures life throws your way, dear girl, because, believe me, life is far too short not to.

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  21. There's a fine line between stupid and honorable.
    There's more to life than self-preservation.

    "You have to learn to enjoy the little pleasures life throws your way"... You're some kind of sick individual, you are.

    Don't call me that. Jesus. Are you going to do anything other than sit around and make antagonizing comments?

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  22. Oh, 'tis now you've said it. You're right, I am a sick individual. Very sick. I might even be the sickest individual alive today. For a given value of alive, that is.

    And to answer your question, yes, I am going to do something other than sit around and make antagonising comments. I'm going to do my job. Observing you lot is a side-project. That's why I'm not lurking twenty-four hours a day. I have important shit to do.

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  23. Hrm. I wonder what he wants us to think that he's up to.

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  24. I sure hope I'm not the one to find out.

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  25. I'm glad he's not dead. Let's keep up hope, shall we?
    Also, don't mind Reach. I think it's cute he still thinks he's relevant.

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  26. I actually find some of Reach's posts entertaining. They're like watching parts of episodes from Beavis & Butthead.

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  27. I'm sure he'll be fine, just as long as he doesn't set himself on fire or anything. My guess is that Zero will be let out of the hospital within a couple of days, barring that he doesn't get attacked or anything.

    Stay safe, Zero.

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  28. I agree, EmptyEyes, but a fool is a fool and his thoughts expressed are to be taken as light humor if not ignored. Still, we are all to be cautious, as what he types may yet have grains of substance.

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  29. *twitches* I(Questioner) just hate those mysterious people. Most Proxies, or "Revenant" as he likes to be called... I'm not interested in their life story or anything, but this one...

    I must ignore him. He's not important. Robert(Guardian) wouldn't be wrong about this.

    *cracks knuckles and prepares for an all-out war with her self-control*

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