I'm an idiot
I've got to be clinicically insane to do what I do, in the mame of morbid curiosity..and a vain attempt to
I'm sick to my stumach and have huge dark spots in my eyes. I can barely see right now, Forgive me typos.
I left work early today waiting for the mail, I had an important delivery. from someoone i dont even lnow for a purpose far too grand. I sat there with a gallon jug, filled with ice, water and some special things.
fefore my reckless ness damned me I decided to tbhink about it a bit more.
i weighed my promise. I promised him id do everything to safe his girl. greenlight gave us the way to do it. him or her, someone had to be marked, someone was damned. I took the thurd option
did my vow to him overwrite my duty as a9Sage) I have a responsibility to people to help
but who had i really helped who was safe
i mahy have provided guidance and theories but who was safe/
if it wasnt for the fact he is in love, maybe i would have declined
but its love dammit, so i trank it.
i've vomitted six times, and cannot hold liquid in me in any form...its anightmare. rest comes to vividdreams laughingdarkness uithink hes fighting me rightnow